Contest-Free-Verse 4:55pm

this frozen heart of mine
hurt so many times
frozen over with iccicles freezing my soul
freezing into my soul
i cant feel it anymore
stabbing the page
watching ink bleed
helplessly
trying to find an answer
as the mixed up conjugated
convulated words
come seeping though this
empty desert of a
wasteland know as my
head
as I try to see
the image inside of me
come to life on the page
i yell out
i scream and shot
shout it out
but not too loudly
cause i dont want to wake
these, other things
for if i think to hard
they will rise up
and their ill-gotten hate
hate and malice
malinformed, mal-aligned
misjudgemental creatures of my frozen soul
will try to make say what I can
say
when I know i dont want to
because im really sorry momma
i didnt mean to hurt you
i never meant to make you cry-
but that's just the way it is
somethings will never change
when you son
who was supposed to be the good one
normal one
full of fun
gotta run'
because these feelings of mine
i musst keep insides
for if i let them out
and tell you how i really feel
what I really want to do to you
to change you
everything around you do
you would be afeared of me
your one normal son
whos not normal after all.